Scribbles and bits 67

This was the last straw.  I will no longer let the past hold me back, and I will no longer be afraid to tell the truth and protect others, just so that I do not have to face the truth.

I do not care if finally standing up and telling the truth will make other people upset.  I know it will, it is only natural, the only thing that matters is that I was able to do the right thing, to try to help protect innocent people from getting hurt. 

The truth is I have been struggling for a long time, deciding what the right thing to do is.  I should have done it earlier, but I was afraid, I was not ready, and I just did not want to hurt anyone else.  I knew what the right thing was, and yet I could not bring myself to do it. 

I convinced myself that people would not believe me, they would not care what I have to say, but the thing is, I know that it does not matter if they believe me.  The important thing is that I tried, I expressed myself, my pain, my feeling, my emotions, and it does not matter if they dismiss my greatest fears as being useless. 

I had to find a way to get through this personal hell I had created for myself.  I knew the only way to do so would damage someone else, she would have to learn something horrible about the person she loved.  But if I found out that something bad happened to a member of her family and I could have stopped it, I would never be able to forgive myself. 

I do not even know this woman, a part of me knows that in order to stop the hatred in my heart for the person she loves, I have to tell her what has happened. 

I know it will hurt her, I know she will hate me, I know she will try to deny it.  But hopefully this too shall pass and she does accept the truth and use it to prevent any harm to come to her family. 

I know that today is just the beginning of her struggles with this situation, but for me it is the start of a new beginning. 

I know that I have made the right choice, and I know that the moment I hit send a new day was dawning.

 

 

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Comments

  1. SEC

    November 05, 2013
    1. proudmomma8

      Thank you

      November 05, 2013
  2. BootLady

    Feels good to chew through the restraints now ‘n’ then, eh?

    November 06, 2013
    1. proudmomma8

      Yes it does.

      November 06, 2013