Scribbles and bits 77 It's Not Too Late

Things are beginning to change in my relationship, I feel that my husband and I are growing apart and I don’t know how to fix it.

I know what we should do, the same thing we used to do when things started to go south, lets slip out and run, as fast as we can, finding someone else’s bed to sleep in and living life on our own.

Seriously, you need to shut up, I put my life with you aside.  Your lifestyle is not living, when we did that I felt dead inside.  I didn’t have anyone to love me at the end of the day and I hated having to look myself in the mirror in the morning.

Come on, loosen up, you know we had fun, you know that I made it easier for you to get by.  We didn’t need those guys in our life anyway, they were not good for us, and they were just out to hurt us!

You are delusional, you are the one who lead me to those guys, I did not even want to be with them, I had other things to deal with, I had dreams that I had to fulfill, and you made me walk in the darkness instead of letting me into the light. 

Come on, you know you miss me, look at that guy, isn’t he cute, isn’t he sweet, don’t you want to touch him, don’t you want to taste him, it would  feel so good, you know it would.

 

Well, he is being nice, he listens to me, and he understands me, maybe I can touch him, and he will make everything…. Wait, what am I thinking? What am I doing, I am not going back, I will never go back, and I will never let you back into my life.  No, I cannot give up, I cannot give in, I have to stay strong, I have to work hard, I have to love, even when I hate, I have to forgive, when I only want to hold on to the anger.  You are no longer a part of me, you are the darkness, and I want to live in the light.  You are my past, and I will keep moving forward into my future.  

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Comments (10)

  1. pastormike

    Great take on the challenge.. Very courageous and heartfelt.

    January 28, 2014
    1. proudmomma8

      thank you.

      January 28, 2014
    2. proudmomma8

      Hey Mike, do you know which challenge is the traveling one? I may just finally get to it.

      February 14, 2014
      1. pastormike

        #63. Unfortunately.. I’m having to use my wifes Kindle and I have no idea how to copy and paste. Best I can do is senx you to my October archives…

        February 14, 2014
        1. proudmomma8

          okay, thank you.

          February 14, 2014
  2. carolsue1ok

    i had been married for 27 years and we knew everything about each other. We would go to work and then come home and have nothing to say. You need to do something fun with each or another couple. I understand why old married couples break up. in my case it was death that broke us up.

    February 14, 2014
    1. proudmomma8

      Great Advice, I am glad that you got to spend so much time with your husband.

      February 14, 2014
  3. proudmomma8

    Thank you sketchy heights.

    January 28, 2014